This time of year, there’s a certain something that’s always on my mind. And that something is family. In our day and age it seems like no family is the cookie cutter, white picket fence, Leave it to Beaver family. My family included.
One year ago last month my parent’s divorce was finalized and I still struggle to deal with it to this day… especially around this time of year.
This was our last Christmas together– with Miss Alea in my tummy.
I grew up with two amazing, loving and supportive parents. They pushed me to succeed and believed in me. Together. They helped me get my first car and sent me off to college. Together. It’s just hard for me to comprehend that even after all those years together, they’re now… apart.
I don’t know why I’m having such a heard time writing this post. It’s reality. It’s stared me straight in the face for over a year now. And I still just can’t come to grips with it. I don’t want my parents to be apart. Who would, right? I always wonder what it would’ve been like if I were still living at home when they split. Or if it would’ve happened earlier, like when I was in high school. And all I can say is, I’m so thankful that I wasn’t. I know it would’ve been ten times harder and so for that reason alone, I am thankful.
But it still breaks my heart that they couldn’t make it work. And it really makes me sad that both sets of Alea’s grandparents are divorced.
But do you want to know what I love? Tomorrow, my mom, dad and brother are all coming over to celebrate Christmas with us. We will all be together again and for just one night we can be a big, happy family. I’m not going to go into tomorrow with rose colored glasses or anything– don’t get me wrong– I know it’s going to be awkward. I know it may be tense at first. I know that it’s not going to be perfect, but it’s exactly what I want. It’s a step in the right direction.
I can’t even begin to tell you how much this all means to me, especially with Alea. I want her to grow up knowing that yeah, maybe her grandparents aren’t married anymore, but they still love her with all their heart and because of that love, they can come together just for her.
I can’t wait.