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I hope I don’t disappoint, but this isn’t an announcement of any kind.
It’s just something that’s been weighing heavily on my mind lately.
I have to admit something to you today. Ever since Alea turned 3 last April, another baby has been really on my mind. Alea’s now at that stage where she doesn’t really need me as much anymore and while she still snuggles me quite frequently, part of me just misses those little newborn cuddles. She’s getting to that age where, when we do decide to start trying for baby #2, the age gap between her and her sibling will be so much more than I ever wanted.
My ultimate dream was to have my kids 2-3 years apart. Well, now that Alea’s almost 3 and a half, that just isn’t going to happen for us anymore. Am I disappointed? Yes, a little bit. I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t. But is it the end of the world? Of course not. Having Alea when I was only 20-years-old (catch up and read the story of our family here), I couldn’t necessarily expect for babies to happen one after the other.
You see, ever since Alea was born I’ve had this “five-year-plan,” a check list if you will, stuck in my head. It’s always been my plan to finish nursing school, get married, get a job as a nurse, and maybe (if the opportunity should arise) move back to the La Crosse, WI area prior to having another baby. When I dream, I dream big obviously! I just have this “ideal” picture painted in my mind of what I want to happen the second time around.
That hasn’t necessarily stopped Cory and I from talking about baby #2, though. We’ve had “that talk” a couple times so far this year– once last spring when I had clinicals on labor and delivery, postpartum, and the neonatal intensive care unit when I was suffering from extreme baby fever and again this fall when Cory brought up the idea of another baby completely out of the blue.
But that’s as far as it’s went. No further discussion of actually trying and no stopping of my birth control or anything like that. It’s something that we’re both so back-and-fourth on, but haven’t quite decided to commit to just yet.
Do I want a baby right now? Yes, so very bad. Is now the perfect time to have a baby? No, not quite, but there’s never really a “perfect” time for anything, right? Is it going to happen right now? Probably not. Some days I’m more okay with that than others, but I completely respect Cory’s opinion in all of this to wait until we’re married this time around. And heck, having a job as a nurse would certainly be ideal. Sometimes I forgot how expensive those little diapers get!
So, no, we won’t be trying for baby #2 anytime soon, but boy am I excited for when we do!
Do you have little ones? When did you decide to start trying for baby #2?