The funny thing about life is sometimes things come and go. Things happen. Priorities shift. Hobbies change. We say things like “Oh, it’s just so busy” or “I can’t find the time” when really its all about what we choose to make time for.
It’s no secret that I haven’t been making a lot of time for this blog for the past couple of years now. The number of posts I’ve written in a month has gone down, my page views have gone down, my engagement has gone down, and well that’s to be expected if I haven’t been around here a whole lot, right? Ever since I got pregnant with Mckenna and went through a rough patch of morning sickness, we moved into our new house, I gave birth to Mckenna, and I had to juggle and figure out a way to balance family, work, my blog, and everything else in life. I’m not sure if I succeeded or if I failed, but I managed to keep both kids alive and make it to work everyday, so I’ll call that a win in my book. (Moms, am I right?)
Truthfully, I know part of the reason I’ve stepped back, too, isn’t just because of “lack of time”. I also feel that if I don’t have the perfect photos to share or if the background is messy, or if things in my life aren’t amazing, then I don’t feel like my posts are worthy. I compare myself to other bloggers who seem to have creativity literally pumping through their veins and I compare myself to others on Instagram who seem to have the prettiest of houses and I feel I just can’t live up to that so why bother trying? WHAT A HORRIBLE ATTITUDE TO HAVE, right? I’m rolling my eyes at myself… trust me. But I know I’m not the only one who struggles with this. The blogging world is a dog-eat-dog world and people wouldn’t be trying to tout perfection on Instagram if it wasn’t working for them. Ya know?
Blogging also isn’t what it used to be and truthfully, I really miss what blogging used to be. I started this blog a million years ago in 2011 and it was a whole different world back then. People blogged to write and to connect and to create. It wasn’t a rat race. There wasn’t that burnout. You blogged when you wanted about what you wanted and it didn’t matter if you used a fancy DSLR camera or if you just used your iPhone. It was pure & it was simple. Don’t get me wrong, I love my DSLR. I’ve missed the photography aspect of blogging as well. I do plan to continue to monetize, but I plan to generate more “life as we go” type content as well. I miss those “Life lately” and “Currently” blog posts. Those are what I loved to read “back in the day.”
But despite the shift in priorities, the feelings of inferiority, and missing the “old” blog-o-sphere, I’ve missed this space of mine. I’ve caught myself “writing” blog posts in my head or thinking of witty blog post titles or jotting down a blog post topic idea or two and I just knew I needed to sit down, put my fingers on the keyboard again and carve out some time for this space again.
I recently sat down with a couple at the farmers market a few weekends ago. They had a booth set-up for face painting and henna and she did phenomenal work. While she painted a sweet & glittery narwhal on Alea’s upper arm, her husband asked where I got my t-shirt. It had an avocado on it and I received it for this post. So, I told him about my blog and he pulled it up on his phone and was scrolling through it. He was so kind and after our conversation it really got my wheels turning about keeping up with this space again and utilizing this creative outlet. I didn’t catch his name, but if you’re reading this– thank you!
Even after typing these 700ish words, I’m already feeling better. I’m back. I’ve missed this!
What’s to come…
I’m going to fill you in a bit on what we’ve been up to recently. Alea is basically having the best year of her life, Mckenna is growing like a weed and turning into a total stinker, Cory’s still doing the house selling thing, and I’ve run 3 5ks and 1 4mi race this year and have a 10k planned for August. I’m still Whole30ing here and there and trying to keep things mostly-Paleo. But I’ll fill ya in more on all of that in my next post!
Thanks to all those who have stuck around, who have been there from the beginning, and to those just stopping by for the first time. I truly am so thankful that you read what I have to say and I’m so thankful that I have this space here to fall back on whenever I need to get my thoughts down on virtual paper.